When Keeping Your Word is Hard
Amy St. Hilaire, MFT

When you say, “I am going to reach my goal,” which “I” is talking? Is it the “I” of your conscious mind? When you set any goal, it is good to get all parts of you—your conscious, unconscious, body and soul—on board so there is no internal fighting, sabotage or distress.

How many times have you said, I’m going to start my diet tomorrow, make my sales quota for bonus this month, make my business a great success this year? Meanwhile, despite your best efforts, you have a hard time doing what you say you are going to do?

Depending on the problem you are looking to rid yourself of, you may have seen doctors, therapists or coaches, tried anti-depressants, energy work, special diets or new regimens. Trying to heal my fibromyalgia, I did all of these things…and like many of my clients, I felt that it was helpful, but nothing was resulting in lasting change.

People come to me with goals for healing all sorts of pain…a broken heart, chronic depression, mind/body illness or social anxiety. One after another, they express that they cannot figure out why they don’t feel better or what has been holding them back. They feel stuck in spite of all the time and money they have expended to feel better. When this happens, there is a good chance that there is an unconscious or hidden piece holding such dis-ease in place.

Our culture is so driven by conscious thought, logical analysis and problem-solving, that we often forget to take into account other levels of knowing and deeper wisdom.

I explain to clients that we have four or more levels of our being. We have the conscious mind and the body, obvious to all of us. We also have a subconscious or unconscious mind, the stuff of which dreams are made, the reason an old song runs through our head for no apparent reason or how we can wake up with the solution to a problem we have been wrestling with for some time. In addition, the theory I am working with says we also have a soul. These levels of our being are woven together in an amazingly intricate way, and if we can consult with all of them—conscious, unconscious, body and soul—we can really find out what is going on and how to get them all working together toward the same goal!

For example, I was working with a client who was working very hard to grow her acupuncture practice up to a steady, sustainable flow of business. She was doing all the right things, including networking, advertising, following up with clients, following her carefully written business & marketing plan, getting additional training, even feng-shuing her office. My client told me that she had been talking to an old friend for their twice-yearly phone call, and she found herself saying once again that she felt like her practice “just on the verge of becoming a success.” In that moment, she realized she had been saying the same thing for about 2 years! She got worried that people would think she was “all talk”.

When we looked into it using Healing from the Body Level Up™ methodology, we found she had a hidden conflict of parts. Asking her deepest wisdom through muscle testing, we discovered there were three parts in conflict. One part said, “Go for it. Make it big. Be bright and shine your [healing] light.” The second part said, “Don’t do it. Stay small. You don’t deserve success.” The third part, apparently trying to appease these two other parts said, “Work your tail off trying to get big and be successful, but never really manifest any lasting results.”

“Wow,” she said, “I could see how this might get in my way and explain how hard I have been working and how I keep feeling like I am just on the verge, but it never really pops.” When asked, her deepest wisdom told us which intervention off my menu of about 40 holistic interventions would work best to heal this conflict. It even told us how long to do the technique, which was three minutes. We did the mind/body intervention and she wrote learnings to indicate that the conflict was healed. We double-checked through muscle testing that the entire conflict was healed 100% at the conscious, unconscious, body and soul levels. Within weeks, her schedule was filling up steadily, and instead of having cancellations, people were calling last minute trying to get in to see her.

Another client wanted to work on the goal of being open and ready to finding her soul mate. When we identified what was getting in the way of this goal, there was a loss trauma. While conscious analysis had us both thinking, “Oh, it must be from some old boyfriend or break up,” it was nothing of the sort. It was from the loss of never having been able to form a close relationship with her sister throughout their childhood, adolescence or into adulthood. This was essentially the first opportunity she’d had to form a close, “intimate” relationship, and on the unconscious level, she felt like she’d blown it. This feeling of failure followed her into every romantic endeavor and set her up to “fail” once again.

While I still haven’t figured out a way to manifest a soul mate for someone in my office, with Healing from the Body Level Up™, we can help clear out old stuff getting in the way of reaching our goals and keeping our word despite our greatest hopes, best efforts and most sincere hearts.


Amy St. Hilaire, MA, MFT (MFC38176) Holistic Psychotherapist and Co-Founder
the Center for Integrative Therapy, LLC· Laguna Hills · 949-916-1100
Article Published in the Voice of Orange County July/August 2004